With the Teaching Team of CloudCatcher WitchCamp, I spent the month of February journeying with Loki, and examining his role in the myth of Freyja we are working at Camp. This was a strong month for me, in terms of the myth, in that I felt secrets were being revealed – exposed, maybe.
I had heard so many – rumours! – about Loki… don’t go there, bad news, can’t trust him… Then when I look at the story, all I can see is that he is the revealer of truth. He rips the veils of illusion away. Exposes others to their own actions, and forces the consequences of those actions. He’s an anarchist.
When I say this to others, I have met with further rumours, Oh, but in other stories he does worse things… but I am not in other stories, I am in this story, and the treatment of him is reminding me of how people are about the Dark Goddess – all bad news for the discomfort she creates, and no appreciation for the work that is done in the ending times/transformation.
For myself, I began the month with a very strong two day Lammas Ritual – dedicated to ripping away/scourging out my emotionalism over the ending of my relationship – not the emotions, just the – hysteria, maybe. And I felt very supported in it – by, I have to imagine, Loki – it was much less painful and awful than i had imagined it might be. It came simply. It felt surprisingly effective, afterwards. The rest of the month I felt relatively quiet, emotionally; real. Present. I thought this was his gift – coming into the present.
There’s also a piece in Demetra George’s Finding Our Way Through the Dark that I happened to read this month, that is written about the Dark Goddess, but I felt also applied to Loki –
For many people it is a very frightening thing to see ourselves stripped of our illusions and false pretensions. She forces us to look at ourselves with utter, naked honesty and makes us demand the truth of things… She is ruthless in destroying any of our life structures or relationships that are built upon a foundation of deception and disresepct… Healing arises when we can enter into our darkness, release our pain…. We can then reclaim the lost and rejected parts of ourselves and integrate them into the wholeness of our being.
I felt – Loki is operating in the NOW – without thought of history or consequences. He impels it. He is presence, and so demands others also become fully present, with truth/reality – his actions can look like manipulation, or trickery – but actually they are exposure, ripping away the veils, the secrets, the covert – we don’t like it when this happens to us, so we label it untrustworthy.
My basis for really believing this is how my month was, the grace which attended it… how in that flow of moment, of trying to be true to that I was so supported – in the difficult ritual, in the simplicity that remained, afterwards… Efficient. Ruthless. Powerful.
The last two mornings of the month I woke to a blazing sunrise – the sky was on fire, on the 27th – all red. on the 28th I woke and it was golden. The purge and the blessing. I felt he is old – older than the others in the story – cathartic and almost cthonic… not with the more human characteristics of the others in this story, more essential. a deep truth. Sere.