CloudCatcher 2019 – Crossing the Abula Path – Day 4

The last day of Path…

This year’s camp went quickly for me, and at the same time I felt so much was done!

I returned to the room, happy to see everyone again, and looking forward to more exploration. The topic for this day was Courage. It was a fascinating choice and something that I needed after my experiences in the Ritual the night before. I was feeling a little raw and unsure of things that morning.

We breathed into what it meant to have Courage. Raven Edgewalker spoke about the courage of mice in the night, the courage of the darting creatures that evade predators to eat. Not all courage has to be a lion.

I love that very much.

The image that came to me was based on previous experience, which I didn’t share in circle, but I wanted to. In 2005, I had a friend, a beloved, who died very suddenly. I was the last person to see him alive. We had fun, we had drinks, we sang songs, and the next morning, he was gone. It took a year for me to try and deal with that sudden grief and pain, but when I did, I worked through it with a teacher of mine in Wales. She guided me to discover the shards of glass I could feel in my heart, and they were replaced with a sacred being who I carry with me to this day. I refer to them as my “Spiritual GPS” and they have presented to me for the last decade and change as a snake. My image of courage became this-

Courage is…

So, as much as this is not my best drawing, it may become something bigger later. I love the idea that the snake who guards my heart can extend to encompass all that I am, that I can hold that courage.

The group was divided into sections of eight, and we were asked to take turns Aspecting the role of Courage. The idea of Courage. One person would be Querent, and ask “What do we need to know about courage?” One person would Scribe, and one person would Aspect. I really enjoy Aspecting work, and I am always amazed that I have little to no memory of what has been said.

The group collectively brought forth incredible words, some of which I have gathered below-

Courage is the hand on the doorknob. Truth, revealing truth in a good time, in a good place. Courage is the breaking open, the presentation of the most inner flame, deepest mysteries. Yell into the void, I exist, no need to qualify. To know you are worthy. Beautiful, deep and painful. Courage is a kind of attention we bring to how we are. Courage is a burning coal the embers never going out. Courage is the light in the eyes staring in darkness. Courage is watching your shadow. Courage is steel and iron, courage is the core that holds the place inside. Courage is acknowledging both the dark and the light. It’s choosing to keep going even in the darkest moments. It’s choosing the hard, challenging way. It’s hope in the face of hopelessness. Courage is crossing the Rubicon. Making decisions. Courage is the crucible fire that allows us to forge it into action. Courage is the understanding that pain is preferable to numbness. It is the seeds that sprout up towards the sun. It is trust in the face of the unknown. Courage is the holy risk. It is the rage of the heart. It is the flame in the darkness. Encourage, bring forth the courage in others. Courage is looking into the eyes of another. Courage is listening to the heart, tempered. Courage is telling your story. Courage is the tiny voice. Courage is the breath before the step. Courage and Fear are lovers. They feed one another and keep one another alive. Courage is fighting a battle that is not yours…