CloudCatcher 2017 – Muse Craft – Day 4

My heart is cracked open! My being is saturated with music. Music is flowing freely, joyfully, effortlessly. My Muse is here alive and strong! Today is another morning of exquisite connection whilst we improvise and create music together. We are creating a community of music! Alphonsus is a culture weaver. He refers to himself as a culture worker rather than a musician. I’d say he is a talented trickster! Jenneth once again manages to keep us grounded with the beating of her drum whilst lifting us to the heavens with her soaring voice. Jenneth’s discipline as a singer lends strength and passion to her voice. I even pick up a tin whistle and join in. It has been a few years since I played a wind instrument. Making music is creating community. Bittersweet feelings dissolve into joy! I feel deep gratitude to Alphonsus and Jenneth for weaving and holding a beautiful safe space for us to re-discover our voices and the creativity of making music as a community.

We share our experiences of providing the music for the moving evening Camp ritual. Feedback that we received is that the music that we created enhanced people’s experience of the ritual. We did this by helping to create the energetic container for the ritual and weaving the musical magic carpet that lifts us all to a higher plane. It is an interesting dance between surrendering to the ritual and continuing to hold the thread of the music. I find the beginning of the ritual discordant and it took me a while to move from being a player to dropping into the ritual as a participant. It was a challenging journey for some of us and ecstatic for others. By the time I had entered the spiral dance I was fully immersed in the tide,  which peaked as the cone of power was raised.

We bring the magic and music of the Muse Craft path into the final WitchCamp lunch by singing a song that Alphonsus wrote about the bittersweet nature of the end of WitchCamp.

When you’re gone, you’re gone forever

When you return, you’ve never left

When you’re gone, you’re gone forever

When you return, you’ve never left

Go far, stay close!

Go far, stay close!

Musc & lyrics by Alphonsus

CloudCatcher 2017 Ritual Day 4

Yesterday I met a spirit of this land. Tonight in ritual, as a group, we are to aspect (embody) those spirit beings. These are the directions given in ritual conspiracy and I plan on following them. The only problem is that something happened today carving out a seemingly divergent direction for me. 

Earlier today there was an optional offering in which Kali revealed herself to me as the loving mother instead of fierce destroyer. This Kali had body shaped like mine, had hair like mine, and was fully black, a matte black, the color of shadow. The bodies of Kali and myself moved in sync. Our weight-shifts matched. Our looseness of limbs matched. We swayed together, the self I know in physical reality, and Kali, the loving shadow. “Dance with me,” she said. And so I did. 

Tonight, instead of the lizard creature I met in yesterday’s ritual, I begin as something else, something that wants to lay on the ground, something that has an extra kind of gravity. I want to be still among other still beings. I imagine others in the group as plants and trees firmly rooted to this land. A handful of ritual participants are fluttering about the circle, jumping, running, flowing, squeaking, and chirping. I lay on the ground under a large stretchy shawl, moving limbs without exerting much energy. A chant is started and I feel pulled to my knees, hands on the floor before me, fingers spread, weight shifting side to side. Kali is here again. She is my mirror. Kali and I stay on our knees moving to the rhythm of the drum that gives shape to our magical container. Kali, a Hindu goddess, does not care that in tonight’s ritual, we are meant to be working with the spirit beings of this land, here in Mount Wolumbin, Australia. 

“Dance with me,” she says as we rise to our feet together. 

I open my eyes. There is more movement now than there was before gravity floored me.  Spirit beings are churning up the energy of our circle. I lock eyes with another aspected spirit being. She is fierce. She replaces Kali as my mirror. With my eyes, I say to her, “Dance with me.” And she does.

CloudCatcher 2017 – Elements of Magic day 4 – Water

Where I live on the Gold Coast water has such a special, almost spiritual significance. I know it sounds funny to say, but a lot of Gold Coaster’s lives revolve around the ocean. Summer days with family and friends playing in the ocean, meditative walks along the shoreline, and the surfers who are out there every morning riding the waves. Water is the element of emotion, change and psychic power.

On the last day of CloudCatcher emotions were running high, I had just been through some of the most transformational experiences of my life, and I didn’t want it to end. After so much intense group work I had found that everyone in the Elements of Magic path had all begun to connect on such a beautiful level. There had to be some empathic connection between us because everyone seemed to be emotional that day. My upbringing was in the cliché macho world so flowing with emotion is something of a struggle for me. I’ve never been the type to express myself, especially when it comes to emotions – but CloudCatcher had changed all that. After our ritual a few nights ago in which we made contact with our ancestors and used the powers of fire and water to reshape ourselves, I don’t think I have ever cried so hard. I don’t know why I cried, I don’t know what triggered me but after that experience, I just had to let it out, and that was ok. CloudCatcher was the kind of place where I could let my emotions go and feel safe and supported. I tapped into something that night, a repressed emotion I had never dealt with and had to be let go. It was refreshing, to say the least.

I felt so empowered to own my emotions and let them guide me. In the past, I’ve read research on similar topics, but Jack explained how water is programmable with intentions. It carries energy and so can be a powerful conduit in magic. Our bodies are more than 75% water, so I’ve begun to understand how our emotional state affects our physical state.

In my last blog, I mentioned the chalices we had been crafting. Well, day 4 was the day they were completed, and we the beautiful burned looking cups were now ready for magic. We went off on a small hike up the mountain to fill our chalices with rainwater, walking single file through the forest I let my consciousness sink to the right frame of the work we were about to do. We filled our chalices and walked back down the mountain to a clearing to perform our blessing. Our blessing was our own – I blessed my water to hold the power of flow within me, I wanted to keep this newfound empowerment long after CloudCatcher finished – my emotions are holy and should be treated as such.

I will never forget my time at CloudCatcher, and I imagine this won’t be my last. I learned about parts of myself I never knew were there and learned new skills I couldn’t wait to take into the world with me. At CloudCatcher I reconnected with the earth, learned the power of my creative mind, was inspired and empowered and I felt more in flow with my emotions than ever.