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Cloudcatcher Witchcamp – Wild Mystics Path – Day 4

This animal body is buzzing and jumping. This animal body is ready to begin.

I am so excited for path today. I’ve been predicting a day of wildness where we go out on the land and get covered in mud and make animal noises. But as we sit on the concrete outside the ritual hall in the centre of camp, Julie and Jarrah explain that this is where we are having path today. Instead of running away to pristine nature, we are going to be working in this place, seeing it as sacred. It feels challenging and part of me is disappointed, but I can also see the rightness of doing this.

We place our rocks and sweetness down on the bricks, then begin a trance to connect into some of the less ‘natural’ objects and plants in the space. As we walk around, Jarrah talks about the clever apes who figured out how to shape and cook clay bricks. The clever apes who enjoyed beauty and brought trees like jacarandas to new parts of the world. Who made windows out of glass, who figured out how to grow wheat to grind into flour to make the pancakes we ate for breakfast that are giving us fuel. It feels edgy, but is done so gently that I feel a softening within me, opening to a new way of thinking.

The idea is offered that everything is part of nature, including human-made objects- because their components all come from nature originally, but also because humans are part of nature. We are nature creating itself.

We are invited to connect with a human-made object, a human-made being, and to try to see this being as sacred. The first thing I see is a large, bright orange plastic traffic cone. I feel very resistant to it and have to force myself to walk over to it. As I kneel in front of it, touching it gently, I begin crying. It feels painful and wrong. I don’t feel able to connect with this traffic cone being, but I get the sense that it is enough for now just to be trying.

We gather together to talk about our experiences. Everyone else has apparently had beautiful mystical encounters with their human-made beings. I can see that I have a long way to go to truly see everything as sacred.

Each day we have been asking the earth ‘how can I look after you today?’, a beautiful practise offered by Julie. Today the answer I receive is crystal clear- sing to the human-made objects in this place. I use a chant I often sing out in nature, though it is much easier to sing to tree ferns and mushrooms than cement and rubbish bins. Again this feels edgy, and my heart is not in it, but it is still important. This reverence and willingness feels like something the earth needs from us, no matter how challenging or unglamorous.

We have time to say goodbye to the land, and make bee motels to take this magic out into the world. Our path ends with humour and joy. It is raining, and the drain pipe above us begins overflowing, creating a waterfall right above where we placed our rocks and sweet offerings. As we each pick up our rock, we have to step under this. Some of us dash in quickly, others linger under the torrent of water. For me, it felt like I was finally connecting to the magic of this human-constructed environment. The water falling on my head reminded me of being in the waterfall yesterday, yet I was standing on cement, surrounded by buildings, but still deeply in a magical state.

Although this day was challenging, I am glad of it. My cup had been filled to overflowing the previous day, and it was time to be of service to this place. I leave path with curiosity about how I will take this work out into the world. It is one thing to feel magic and connection in a waterfall, but can I do it in my shower? It is easy to beam out luminous love light in a forest, but can I do it in a city?

This animal body is re-membering. This animal body is re-wilding. This animal body is saying yes.

CloudCatcher 2017 Ritual Day 3

Water is life. Revive. Renourish. Reconnect.

I am triggered. I feel scattered. I am positive that there is no amount of uphill climbing that will be enough. As we ascend the path uphill from the Ritual Hall, I want to run. I want to scream. I am not feeling considerate. Fire is running through me. We reach a rotted wooden platform – it feels unsafe to work ritual here. We turn around and head back down the path. There are uphill openings between the trees on my left as we descend the trail. I want to walk through them but we are doing group activity. I am fully aware of the selfishness I feel right now.

We are here to create a ritual together, the four of us, to end in a place where we feel revived, renourished, and reconnected. I already know the only chance I have to get closer to that sort of heart space is to lead a trance. Trance workings always seem to sort me out and bring me fully present to the magic. We divy up roles among us. The circle is cast. We call in leeches, cockroaches, dark mermaids, crocodiles, and the like. I feel better already as these are my long time accomplices in magic. 

This is the first ritual we’ve done outside all week. My breath feels bigger. My toes dig into the cold wet earth, scrunching leaves and mud. I feel grounded, connected, and in my power. I begin the trance. I am taking our group to a sacred place, down an ancient path, where we are to meet a spirit being, a being of this land. 

I pause for ten breaths as we meet our being, allowing everyone, including myself the time we need here, the time to meet our being and the time to ask questions. 

With my eyes closed, a natural pool of blue water appears in front of me, banked by white sand on all sides. A lizard man stands hip deep in the cool water, staring back at me. His head titls side to side as he inspects me. He is curious about me. I ask him if he has any message for me. He clicks at me, smacking lizard lips, coming to to a stop open-mouthed. I understand nothing and am alright with at least having met a spirit of the land. It is time to say goodbye. I thank him and  feel two ideas push their way into my awareness: courage and curiosity. There is my message. I walk the path home from this trance journey feeling revived, renourished, and reconnected. 

How will I carry curiosity and courage forward?

CloudCatcher 2016 Day 3 – Labyrinth Path

“We dance the labyrinth and the lands with Fae allies at our side, opening new paths, crossing edges that might have been closed before, and closing the doors that no longer serve us” (Day 3 Intent)

Today we had the opportunity to ‘Aspect’ our Fae ally and to be a ‘Tender’ to one of our peers when they did the same. Thibaut lead a detailed discussion on Aspecting and Tending before we began, and after ensuring that we had properly prepared ourselves, we paired off so each person could take a turns in either role.

Prior to Aspecting today, our group had altered the labyrinth path slightly so that we could walk through the ‘human’ gate, and out the Faery gate, into the lands of the Fae. The time spent walking through the labyrinth would be the time in which we were inviting our being to walk with us, in us, or around us.

I took on the role of tender first- My partner communicated to me that they would probably not need much assistance or guidance during their Aspecting; requesting for me just to witness, and carry their water bottle. They also suggested some personal topics to ask them questions about when grounding afterwards.

I hear a call, it comes from far away; I don’t know where it leads, behind the gates of night and day.. (chant)

Last night I had spoken to the ally I’d met first- a darker, more feminine being- and had planned to aspect them in my body, from my ribcage upwards. I was also to bring a red tie-on bracelet that I would put on during my time Aspecting, as a promise, sign, and reminder of the relationship I have and will continue, with both of the allies I spent time with in yesterday’s trance. I didn’t have a red bracelet at camp, so I had to create one this morning before path.

I readied the simple things that help me feel grounded daily, and the things I know have helped after previous experiences Aspecting. I let my tender know where I had my food, cigarettes, my beanie hat, and a water bottle- as well as my intentions for the ritual. When I began to walk the labyrinth, however, I could feel not just one, but both of my allies wanting to be with me. I decided I was okay with this, but renegotiated that my boundary would be that I would only aspect from my shoulders up (no arms).

My senses felt a lot sharper whilst Aspecting, but my eyesight seemed to slightly blur around the edges- like sharp, bright, tunnel vision. My Self felt somewhat disconnected, and the conversations I had with the two beings whirled around my head. I only Aspected for a short time- I know that for me personally, this practice takes quite a toll on my mind and body. I tied my bracelet onto my wrist, we had some laughs and giggles, and I gained some (more!) insights- particularly around things I can do to feel the Fae’s presence, and reminders of the things that kept me joyful in my formative years.

After ‘devoking’ them, I employed my grounding techniques with the support of my Tender, including things like using my name, patting down my body to feel my ‘edges’, and hugging. We then had the opportunity to get into small groups and discuss our experiences in both roles. I find it to be an honour to be a Tender to someone- feels quite intimate to be witnessing someone’s personal experience with a being that is not in this realm. Aspecting is a tool that I find extremely useful, but is also something that wears me out very easily, so I always try my best to keep my time purposeful with intent, so that the experience is fruitful and positive.