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Cloudcatcher 2019 – Elements Pathway – Day 2

Waking to the pounding rain on the tin roof is quite indicative of the inner work which for me is creating silent introspection surrendering to the void. The early morning mist is making it difficult to gauge the time, dark clouds are overhead which adds to the touching of the quiet places within that have been hidden in the ‘normal world’ outside this sacred container. The air is thick with the scent of last nights’ ritual, the dank smell of the Dark Goddess is close, as I close my eyes I can feel her energy behind me… and so the day begins.

Today as we gathered in our sacred temple space for Elements of Magic I feel the Allies gathering around me, my lineage close and I feel called to express the calling in the Grandmothers and Grandfathers, our ancestors, land and spirit ancestors to be our guide during today’s exploration. Casting our circle, feeling the waves of the energy swirling around and we were asked to consider the element of Earth and how it weaves magick in the world through animals, people who work earth with their hands, those who do not have the motivation of financial gain and empire building, roles in the patriarchy and the complexities of the many layers of living Earthside. This led into discussions around capitalism, separation of self and elements, disassociation of diversity, shame, guilt, acts of courage and abundance. Reflection is an understated pathway to personal truth and I always love to dive into the stories I tell myself and see what’s really simmering under the surface of the everyday façade. For me this again raised the grief I feel when I disconnect from my body, shifting into the logical brain, the analytical side of my psyche, distrusting my innate knowledge when it is most required, so I send my body compassion and empathy.

We were then paired up to complete an eye gazing exercise, I cannot even tell you the details of the process we went through as I was absolutely transported into universal energies, lifted from my body, almost felt like I dived into my new friends’ eyes like a deep pool or ocean of stars. I saw them as stardust where I fell into this play and floating in the stratosphere. At first, I felt their emotions as I can feel it in my own being, but the feeling was such a sense of something much bigger than our human existence, like all of my questions were answered with my cells in my body opening to their innate remembering. It was quite profound.

The element of Earth was farewelled, and Fire was coaxed into circle, in this moment as Earth shifted back, fire drew forth and my creative fire was ignited, my advocate entered my being fully, my womb shuddered, my sensual-self entered the room and I was reminded deeply of my own power.

As with Fire being drawn into the space, it was time to move the body!! Jack and Jarrah took us through a number of exercises including primping and preening our own energy fields in preparation for the deeper work of fire which was moving into the dominating and surrendering energy. I personally fell into the child when my partners energy tried to dominate mine it reminded me of a time in my teenage years when I felt smothered, dominated and denied. When I was able to reassure that place in my younger self – I was able to move into deep joy. The invitation then was to really feel your group/partners energy through an expression of yes / no energy without moving. I loved this energy exercise and understood how my embodiment of the invitation or denial affected others.

This flowed into a group discussion around energy in various places/locations and then how hierarchy and societal power plays can deeply effect our personal energetics. It was then an introspective piece to question your own feelings around choice, empowerment and agency (collective), leadership / service or power with and energy exchange scenarios rather than the power over. It was time to drop deeper and reflect on ‘What is your power? How do you wield it? And finally do you value power?’. Our facilitators pointed out that the core power of Witch is CHOICE.

‘Cone of power’ was then introduced with energy raising practices, showing us the energetic power that can be raised by intention and movement, where the energy is directed and how it can feel in the center of the cone.

The circle was closed with all leaving feel energised and powered up with the support of fire!!!

 

 

Cloudcatcher 2018 – Wild Mystics Path – Day 4

This animal body is buzzing and jumping. This animal body is ready to begin.

I am so excited for path today. I’ve been predicting a day of wildness where we go out on the land and get covered in mud and make animal noises. But as we sit on the concrete outside the ritual hall in the centre of camp, Julie and Jarrah explain that this is where we are having path today. Instead of running away to pristine nature, we are going to be working in this place, seeing it as sacred. It feels challenging and part of me is disappointed, but I can also see the rightness of doing this.

We place our rocks and sweetness down on the bricks, then begin a trance to connect into some of the less ‘natural’ objects and plants in the space. As we walk around, Jarrah talks about the clever apes who figured out how to shape and cook clay bricks. The clever apes who enjoyed beauty and brought trees like jacarandas to new parts of the world. Who made windows out of glass, who figured out how to grow wheat to grind into flour to make the pancakes we ate for breakfast that are giving us fuel. It feels edgy, but is done so gently that I feel a softening within me, opening to a new way of thinking.

The idea is offered that everything is part of nature, including human-made objects- because their components all come from nature originally, but also because humans are part of nature. We are nature creating itself.

We are invited to connect with a human-made object, a human-made being, and to try to see this being as sacred. The first thing I see is a large, bright orange plastic traffic cone. I feel very resistant to it and have to force myself to walk over to it. As I kneel in front of it, touching it gently, I begin crying. It feels painful and wrong. I don’t feel able to connect with this traffic cone being, but I get the sense that it is enough for now just to be trying.

We gather together to talk about our experiences. Everyone else has apparently had beautiful mystical encounters with their human-made beings. I can see that I have a long way to go to truly see everything as sacred.

Each day we have been asking the earth ‘how can I look after you today?’, a beautiful practise offered by Julie. Today the answer I receive is crystal clear- sing to the human-made objects in this place. I use a chant I often sing out in nature, though it is much easier to sing to tree ferns and mushrooms than cement and rubbish bins. Again this feels edgy, and my heart is not in it, but it is still important. This reverence and willingness feels like something the earth needs from us, no matter how challenging or unglamorous.

We have time to say goodbye to the land, and make bee motels to take this magic out into the world. Our path ends with humour and joy. It is raining, and the drain pipe above us begins overflowing, creating a waterfall right above where we placed our rocks and sweet offerings. As we each pick up our rock, we have to step under this. Some of us dash in quickly, others linger under the torrent of water. For me, it felt like I was finally connecting to the magic of this human-constructed environment. The water falling on my head reminded me of being in the waterfall yesterday, yet I was standing on cement, surrounded by buildings, but still deeply in a magical state.

Although this day was challenging, I am glad of it. My cup had been filled to overflowing the previous day, and it was time to be of service to this place. I leave path with curiosity about how I will take this work out into the world. It is one thing to feel magic and connection in a waterfall, but can I do it in my shower? It is easy to beam out luminous love light in a forest, but can I do it in a city?

This animal body is re-membering. This animal body is re-wilding. This animal body is saying yes.

CloudCatcher 2017 Ritual Day 3

Water is life. Revive. Renourish. Reconnect.

I am triggered. I feel scattered. I am positive that there is no amount of uphill climbing that will be enough. As we ascend the path uphill from the Ritual Hall, I want to run. I want to scream. I am not feeling considerate. Fire is running through me. We reach a rotted wooden platform – it feels unsafe to work ritual here. We turn around and head back down the path. There are uphill openings between the trees on my left as we descend the trail. I want to walk through them but we are doing group activity. I am fully aware of the selfishness I feel right now.

We are here to create a ritual together, the four of us, to end in a place where we feel revived, renourished, and reconnected. I already know the only chance I have to get closer to that sort of heart space is to lead a trance. Trance workings always seem to sort me out and bring me fully present to the magic. We divy up roles among us. The circle is cast. We call in leeches, cockroaches, dark mermaids, crocodiles, and the like. I feel better already as these are my long time accomplices in magic. 

This is the first ritual we’ve done outside all week. My breath feels bigger. My toes dig into the cold wet earth, scrunching leaves and mud. I feel grounded, connected, and in my power. I begin the trance. I am taking our group to a sacred place, down an ancient path, where we are to meet a spirit being, a being of this land. 

I pause for ten breaths as we meet our being, allowing everyone, including myself the time we need here, the time to meet our being and the time to ask questions. 

With my eyes closed, a natural pool of blue water appears in front of me, banked by white sand on all sides. A lizard man stands hip deep in the cool water, staring back at me. His head titls side to side as he inspects me. He is curious about me. I ask him if he has any message for me. He clicks at me, smacking lizard lips, coming to to a stop open-mouthed. I understand nothing and am alright with at least having met a spirit of the land. It is time to say goodbye. I thank him and  feel two ideas push their way into my awareness: courage and curiosity. There is my message. I walk the path home from this trance journey feeling revived, renourished, and reconnected. 

How will I carry curiosity and courage forward?